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Jan 6, 2005
Back again

Back again

 

Weíre back again

Time healed the pain

But all the experience I gain

Will never be forgotten

It only took two missed call

For me to fall

 

Before all saints day

He went away

But not from me he canít get away

You got  away from me

Back home, you call on me

Almost everyday, now

 

What happened? youíre gone again

So sudden I did not catch you

Will it be the same again?

Im surprised that you woke up early

So early you called me up

Just to say youíre going away

 

I called at lunch time

Youíre already gone

So nothing left but to page you

Paged you thrice from the time youre gone

 

The quake made you come back

Your head has been shake

The jellyfish were the sign

Sign of you being mine.

 

Yesterdayís a surprise

I didnít thought youíd be early

Just so happen I answered your call

And you try to convert me

 

But I donít think you can

Even though I know Iím weak

But my belief is in the strongest state

Still you try too to break it


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Jan 3, 2005
needle and thread

NEEDLE AND THREAD


You just had her
I just had him
We we're going out
We almost moved out

We were just there
Thinking about them
Thinking us now
Should we take a bow

I was falling
And still falling
Thinking what if...
What might have been

You moved out, witout me
It hurt so much, you never knew
I was crying to God then
To have you, that it'll be only you

You never knew my dreams
It is to make you happy
To have you satisfied
And find the woman who gave you life

I cried in front of the altar
It was the hardest prayer I did
It was the first time that i felt
that my heart's being squeezed, being pinched

I drunk my self, i was with friends
that's the time i became a victim
of my weak feelings
I get involved with someone
that must i shouldn't be

I am broken...
Im trying to patch things
but patches aren't enough
I need needle and thread

My biggest problem now
is where to find them
my needle and thread
Hope God would help me find them


Posted at 01:07 am by minadimal
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Dec 30, 2004
I MAY NOT BE


 I MAY NOT BE


I MAY NOT BE THE ONE YOU LOVE MOST

I MAY NOT BE THE ONE WHO MET YOU FIRST

I MAY NOT BE THE FIRST WHO CARED FOR YOU

I MAY NOT BE YOUR MOTHER YOU NEVER MET

I MAY NOT BE THE ONE YOU THOUGHT I AM

I MAY NOT BE THE ONE YOU EXPECT

BUT ONE THING I AM NOT SURE...

I MAY NOT GET TIRED OF CARING AND LOVING YOU



Posted at 11:06 pm by minadimal
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Dec 21, 2004
SO SAD

SO SAD

So sad, I feel so sad

I just had my birthday yesterday

Maybe this is the saddest b day I ever had

But the most experienced year I had

Iíve learnt so many things

 

So much that Iam too afraid to get into

And whats to be afraid of

Those simple things I thought

Actually  bothers me much

 

I thought those people who had that

Is just naÔve to have thoughts about it

But now I understand

Why people react that way over. 

 


Posted at 09:50 pm by minadimal
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Dec 20, 2004
luv me

 LUV ME

i want you to love me more

More more than what i am getting now

You always say that you love me but,

i know you're just saying that

Even though I know its not true

Why I still want to believe you

Inspite of everything, that were not meant

Inspite of everyones contrast

We still find ourselves enjoy

But what hurt is that we both know its a sin.

We both love Him, with Him, in Him

How could we get out of this temptation

I know you're working on it, and i am too.

I know we both just don't wanna lose each other

But I know in fasr end I will be the one to lose

you might not know how I'm trying to be cold with you

but I just cant understand how you do it

How your words transmit to me your warmth

I wanna go back, back to where you're not yet there

I guess this really meant to happen

Coz I know its not me who could get the error,

Then be friendly to someone I don't know

I don't know how this would end

How we'll turn out to be

 


Posted at 09:41 pm by minadimal
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Dec 19, 2004
Everythings lovely

Everythings lovely

 

Everythings lovely

I feel so loved and to love

I got cute txts

I got cute calls

 

My smiles so different

Eventhough I feel do sleepy

I talked and texted so much

The phone receivers burning

My call cards running out

That does not pay that day

 

I got this new admirer

I got this new textmate

I donít like them both

 

My old phonepal

My old textmate

Are my favorite

 

Christmas is so warm

Im sorry God

That I wasnít able to complete the dawn mass

Spiritualy cold

But socialy warm

 

Why things are like that

You cant get it all at one time

Youll always look for something

Whenever you got what you want

 

I feel so uplift and yet my

Body feel so weak

My eyes are getting sleepy

 

12/22/1999

07:46hrs


Posted at 09:35 pm by minadimal
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Dec 18, 2004
SHOWS UP

SHOWS UP

 

Funny someone always shows up

Everytime I lose my honey

Its like a queston of whats up

Everytime I feel a loney

 

So sudden I forgot about the bummer

Coz here he is standing in front of me

A much more better than that stanger?

I didnt expect him to remember me

 

How cool it is, for him to know me

Coz im not a popular girl in our school

And he is our council president then

To think hes even our classroom escort

 

What a smile he just flashed on me

That sparkling white complete teeth

What a bod, fitted shirt hes wearing

Shows his macho chest, a turn on to girls

 

Funny I feel no sensation inside me

All I felt was flattery

I wonder whats with him that I cant see

Hes an attractive man, and yet im not attracted to him

 

When we first had our petty chat,

I feel so beautiful just because

because im talking to a handsome guy

Whom far to my thinking would talk to me initially

 

And then I feel like these cute guys

im walking across would look at me

but I see nothing wrong with me

when I got home I just feel good that time

 

I think he is an angel who could change my out look

Would cheer me up every time im sad

I see him very rare but its always when im sad

Ive watched this on TV and read it on book

 

But still im thinking of my bummer one

The one who hurt me, I wonder why

When I could have this far better man

I still cant get him out of my mind

 

How pathetic I feel I am

This cruel happening is actually what we call life

Actually life isnt cruel tome

Its how we deal with life is cruel

 

 

But lets not worry this time

Coz everything will be fine

He will come on the 2nd time

To make our life be a better one

 

12/4/1999

7:22 am


Posted at 09:47 pm by minadimal
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Dec 17, 2004
SENT

SENT

9/8/1999

6:21:45 hrs.

4:45 my angel, Seth

 

Are you a heaven sent?

Sent to me from above

Are you the angel that is meant?

That brighten up my days to love.

 

I did not get it from first

I thought you were the one

You were my special guest

And its you who shouldíve won

 

But now I realize

You were not, what I thought

Our conversation I memorize

Everything we agreed and fought

 

So now I never hope

Cos I know youíll be here

In situation I need to cope

There in my heart you whisper

 

I try to contact you in good times

But I canít, maybe your just meant

To be with me in bad times

Which means you are my heaven sent

 

Love that has no guage

Not what we thought in coming of age

I have to strengthen my bone

To prepare if ever Iíll be alone

 

But no it will never happen

Cos He wants to be the one

Now I know Heís the one whoís meant

I now know  that I will never be alone.

 


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Dec 16, 2004
DONT DESERVE YOU

Donít deserve you

Im at peace already

I have set my mind already

To be alone

Just only one

 

Why all the while you try

Try to learn about me

You force a friend to give you my number

I have nothing then, so why not, I play.

 

I didnít intend to fall but I did

How naÔve am  I to fall for a stranger

But u ran out of pretty things to say

You left me hanging, waiting

Then I tried to forget you.

 

Your rudeness, I think you never knew

U just slip away and left my spare feelings

How could u be so insensitive

U didnít even care for my feelings

 

You came again, I thought im trough you

Funny how I still hunger for you

My real friends told me to forget you

But how could I, youíre the first.

 

I had u again, u had me

We talk shallow things

It didnít interests me though

Then I found out ur trying to lie again

 

Lies u gave me a lot of it

I never had u even one small of it

I am too naÔve to trust a stranger

But I thought youíre a stranger no more

Then thereís space again.

 

More than a month I was happy

Living and minding my own life

I was too happy loving my self my life

Joy is what I felt with God

 

Im so ready to live my life on my own

When you tried to contact me

I received much peace and forgiveness

So why not give us another chance

 

I thought it was much blessing to have you back

Until you told me youre bound to province

Im flattered to be told and telling you to take care

I paged you thrice for take care

 

How ironic when I know im falling deep

Something came up

I got this feeling that youíre playing

I was falling deep and hurt so deep

 

I have decided not to answer your call

Let you know im not gonna play your game

My revenge is for you to find out

I want you to see me so beautiful

 

A beauty that you let slip away

Someone who doesnít deserve you

And yet has loved and still hurt by you

Let you know how fool u r to play.

 

I cannot bear it

So foolish I am to be fooled

So trustful I am with stranger

But your much more than a stranger.

 

Now I cant wait for you to come back

How would you reactÖ

 

Its so heavy to bear

I wonder then why girls cries for guys

When theyíre all pigs

I was just cannot grasp girls foolishness then

Now I get it.

 

And I think im now here for revenge

Id treat you the best youíll never forget

Until youíre too hooked with me

Thatís the time im gonna be your firewoman

Im gonna put out your fire

Im gonna burn your desire.

 

*11/25/99*

*06:30 hrs*

 


Posted at 09:30 pm by minadimal
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Dec 15, 2004
i want you

I want you to love me more
More more than what iam getting now
You always say that you love me
but I know youre just saying that
Even though I know its not true
Why I still want to believe you
Inspite of everything, that were not meant
Inspite of everyones contrast
We still find ourselves enjoy
But what hurt is that we both know Itís a sin.
We both love Him, with Him, in Him
How could we get out of this temptation
I know youíre working on it, and iam too.
I know we both just donít wanna lose each other
But I know in far end I will be the one to lose
You might not know how im trying to be cold with you
But I just cant understand how you do it
How your words transmit to me your warmth
I wanna go back, back to where youre not yet there
I guess this really meant to happen
Coz I know its not me who could get the error,
Then be friendly to someone I donít know
I donít know how this would end How weíll turn out to beÖ
4/12/2K 7:52am

Now were getting more intimate
You call me everyday not to mention your texts
Even the day youíre not suppose to
I got surprised whenever you do that
I know Iím falling, but not to with the right person Ö
youíre not the right oneÖ And I am very much aware of that.
I told you Iím afraid, you told me not
to Because you love me too..
But my proofs are too shallow Am I naÔve to believe in you?
I just know I love what we have now
Yet I still crave for more
And I know I canít have you all
9/2/2k 6:08h

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